Sayonara 2012

Dear 2012,

                Since I started my writing this year with the opening phrase ‘dear’, I believe it is just proper to close it with the same phrase. Hence, I’ll say ‘Dear 2012’. Now that your days are numbered and your time is up, I think it is a human nature to look back and remember how you tossed my life during your reign…It seems just yesterday when I welcomed father 2009 and called him ‘my so-rockin’ 2009’. But time flies especially when you are lost in your own wilderness and wandering around like an old demented patient.

                This year is like seating in a roller coaster ride while eating ice cream on cone. It's crazy! I had a good number of ups but my downs are more than my ups. One moment everything is fine, the next moment I woke up seating on a plane going somewhere far. Then the next time I opened my eyes, I’m million miles away from home and is approximately five steps away from Antartica. It took a while before I recovered from my overwhelming shock.

                This year, I learned a lot and oh boy! I learned it the hard way. 2012 constantly reminded me that Plan B is a must. It made me realize as well how lucky I am back home and how hard it is for parents to raise their kids. This realization made me proud of my family and made me love them more. You really don’t know what you have until you get separated from them. And because of this I have a lot to thank for to 2012…

…for making me fall down over and over again

…for making me realize that forever is only applicable to you if your last name is Cullen

…for making me learn to keep up with individual differences of other people

…for teaching me that a good pair of shoed should be durable enough to get you home when you’re lost

…teaching me the valuable lesson of time management and friendship

…that there is a limit to what a person can take

…that assumption and expectation should be avoided as much as possible

…that preparation is better than ending up being sorry

…that in time, like the sediments, things will settle in eventually

…that a love-hate relationship can be cool sometimes

…that there are better things to do than being sorry for yourself and whining over things that cannot be changed anymore

…that throwing things is not a good way to handle anger

…that it’s ok to fall down as long as you know when to rise up and kick them back

…that as long as you can read, you’ll never get lost

…that no matter how painful things are, they too shall pass

…that players should never be trusted

…that lies and truth both hurts

…that it is ok to splurge once in a while when you know that you deserve it

…that there are scars that will never heal, thus, try not to hurt another person

…that chocolates are life saver

…that words are like scissors

…that at the end of the day it all comes back to your choice

…that debts are not nice

…that someone maybe looking at you when you thought you’re alone

…that I’m still a child

…that I should, like Callie Torres, stand tall, even if I’m just 5’2”

…that I should train my mind and tongue to work together

…that the world can rob me of my innocence but then again I should continue to fight and protect my five-year old like heart if I still want to be me

…that it’s hard to earn money

…that the heart forgives but never forgets

…that as the Alchemist said, what happens once will definitely happen again

…that our influence over the others run long

…that you don’t need someone to take care of you, unless you are physically incapable

…that all your life you’ve live alone starting from conception (unless you have a twin), so there’s no reason kill yourself when someone leaves you

…that being too open and passive kills your sensitivity

…that jealousy is a scary green eyed monster

…that being humble is being blessed

…that you should not dwell in the past

…that some secrets should be kept secret for the good of the others

…that to initiate change, check yourself first

…that after checking yourself, become an example

…that you don’t always get what you want

…that you should learn when to yield

…that it is not a defeat to surrender

…that exploring is either good or bad depending on the situation

…that giving chips to the pigeons is dangerous for their health

…that human falters but God never

…that prayers can take you to your dreams and can go long

…that being angry for a long time consumes the goodness in your body

…that instead of cursing and complaining, start to pray

…that you should never open your mouth if nothing good will come out of it

…that you should not judge anyone

…that everyday is a miracle

…that you should work hard then play hard and sleep long like sleeping beauty

…that diamonds aren’t a girl’s bestfriend but lipstick and perfume are

…that the obsessive gene can be annoying sometimes

…that ignorance is not a valid excuse

…that you can learn if you put your heart in it

…that accountability and responsibility are big words, so as settle

…that it’s ok to cry sometimes

…that Monica and I are somewhat similar

…that if you don’t practice your multiplication table you’ll forget it

…and that most importantly, God is always with me 24/7, no matter what

 

Sayonara 2012! It’s such a shame you passed by quickly without me noticing it. But you know what they say about time, that it passes by fast when you’re having fun. So therefore, I conclude, that I had a blast on your roller coaster =)

Dear 2013,

You better be good to me or else…or else... I’ll figure my way out of your maze =)

P.S.

                Mr. 2012, 12.21.12 is not true after all =)

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