Tired and Uninspired

Home, was always quiet 'til the sun went down.
But we were stowaways.
Yeah, we were so afraid.

So, we ran out of town.
From everyone who was calling us out.
Relax, relax.
Exhale and breathe, just breathe for me.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

Oh, they're not frame,
Oh, it went away.
You knew you had to leave and couldn't stay.
Be strong for me, I'll be strong for you.
Be strong for me, I'll be strong for you.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

And be strong for me.
And be strong for me.
And I'll be strong for you, oh, you.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
You are the earth beneath my feet.
You are my gravity.

Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

who is heartless?

Apparently, I lost my heart. As far as I can remember I gave it to someone but instead of taking care of it, he threw it away. I did not bother to find it again. It's broken anyway.

Words of wisdom from a brown paper

The new addition to my growing files. And the very inspiring brown paper.

Today I have enrolled myself in IELTS(International English Language Test System) review even though my schedule is still a mess =)

But I know nothing is impossible and I'm asking God to back me up.

The person in-charge there gave me few assignments since I told him that I can't come to class regularly. The assignment includes listening and reading task which he placed in a long brown envelope.

I have a feeling that the review materials here are just being lend and you're supposed to return them when you're finished because the materials he gave me have some pencil markings and he told me not to put any markings except when using pencils.

When I left the review center I browse over the materials I found this quote on the envelope.

"If you ask it from God in prayer, believe that it will be given to you...No matter how small the possibility is, by simply believing in it and putting our HOPE in the LORD, 1% of possibility can go as far as 100%"

I find it inspiring. I think it is God's way of saying "my child, I'm here"

it is similar to the phrase

"ask and you shall receive,

seek and you shall find"

Lord, I know you're just watching over us. Thank you for believing in us, for never letting us down and for showing in every way possible that you love us. I am so blessed by your love and grace.

I can never ask for anything more. All i need is you Lord.

Faith

When you feel lost and beaten up.

And life throws one curve ball after another.

When you feel like giving up.

Just remember that God knows where you are

God knows what we need

God hears

And God never fails

so just trust in Him

Because when you are down on your knees, remember that it is always the BEST POSITION to pray.

Wonderful Day =)

Wonderful Day =)

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'anyare?!?!

Anyare?

Hindi ko din alam. Medyo disappointed ako sa mga nagyari ngayong araw. First day of the week and yet it is my first disappointment of the year.

Kasalanan ko din naman kasi late na kong natulog at hindi ko pinansin ang mga alarm ko. I should have known that plans sometimes never work out the way they should be kahit gaano mo pa katagal pinaghandaan.

and so I left home at past 1pm hoping that the 'seista time' will be over when I get there. I wasn't really in myself nung dumating ako dun. First, nakalimutan ko kung saan ang nursing office and second bigla kong naalala na I'm looking for the clinic of an EENT doctor. I have planned to have my tonsils checked since two weeks na yung sore throat ko.

When I arrived at the nursing office, wrong timing yata ang sungit ng mga tao. I stuttered when I was speaking, it's a bad habit of mine whenever I get nervous. Well anyway to cut it short mas matagal pa kong nag hintay kesa sa talagang plano ko.

Why? Because the person I was talking to was looking for her own copy of the letter na dala ko. Alam ko I made two copies of that. Kaya lang she was looking for the letter na addressed talaga sakanya kasi daw naka 'thru' lng skanya yung mga letter.

So I decided na wag na makipag talo I just said na I'll be back with her copy. Really, patience is a virtue.

Kaso ayoko ng umuwi para lng mag print. Mahal ang gasolina. So naghanap na lang ako ng computer shop. Yun nga lang malas talaga nasira yung printer dun sa pinuntahan ko. I checked my time it's almost four 'o clock na din. I decided to just pay the shop and go home since hindi na rin ako aabot. Pipirmahan pa kasi ng adviser at ng dean yung letter.

How can one small thing ruin one's optimism? Actually I'm a bit depressed/disappointed with what happened. This is my first disappointment for the year. And as I said it fortunately happened on the first day of the week.

Tama nga siguro sila, kung hindi ukol hindi bubukol. Maybe it's not my day today. Sabi ko nga nga dapat pala flexible ka when you are doing this thesis kasi nga your plans never turn out the way they should be.

buti na lang nung pauwi na ko nakakita ko ng pampalubag loob. I know kahit na I'm down God will always be there. Happy blessed Monday everyone! :)

Song for myself =)

I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten, yeah

Oh, oh

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah yeah
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins


The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

Patience is a Virtue

Waiting is really hard to do and I must have more patience. One thing I learn from this thesis writing is that you should be more flexible because most of the time your plans don't turn out the way they should be.

I have also learn to humble yourself more and show humility. Indeed, it's really hard to ask for a favor from the people you really don't know. It takes a lot of courage to do that.

sometimes, this thesis thing is getting the best of me. I sometimes feel like giving up but knowing that I already gone this far gives me a little more push to go on. I know God will never fail me. I know He will never leave me and I'm giving Him back this experience. I know He just wants me to learn. Sometimes God has a funny way of teaching you lessons but one must never doubt Him for He is always there for us.

God, I thank you for giving e a chance to experience this things. Through this I have learned to become more patient and to humble myself more. I lift everything to you. I know Your Grace will always be with me.

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