a short journey..Super Junior

My heart that loved you
my eyes that looked at you
ARE STILL HERE.

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

In the cold wind the feeling of your warm hand stays for a while
all your traces become tears and stay on my cheeks
After I go on for a trip for a short while and wipe of my heart wrenching wound
after time passed by when I meet you I will tell you that I missed you

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

Today when the sun sets and the moon rises again, it's still the same
oh why is my heart changing this fast
Your appearance that resembled the blue sky rains
when my body gets wet from this rain I'll hide my running tears

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

In the past when I did whatever I wanted and was foolish
you who embraces all of that are really precious

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
The talk about goodbye, I'll put it aside for a short while
When I open that door and take one step
your breath that's conveyed to the tip of my nose

Oh baby say goodbye, for a short while goodbye
I'll go back to the place when I once was
When I open that door and take one step
so that I can stand in front of you who i missed

My heart that loved you
my eyes that looked at you
I'll WAIT...



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my birthday wish list :)

tee-hee! april is now here! well, actually I'm a bit late because it's gonna end soon :) but anyways, its my birth month! :D

so for my birthday here's my new wish list :

1.a SLR cam (sige naman na haha)

2. a laptop

3. a blackberry

4. paints and brushes

5. elmer's glue

6. portable dvd player

7. double-sided tape

wow that's a lot :) but this is just a 'wishlist' but seriously i'd appreciate a double-sided tape cause I ran out of stock for my scrapbook..happy earth day!

post graduation thoughts

Today my new day starts. An opening door to what had closed. It may sound cliche (I think that's why they are called cliche because they actually work) but now is the time to reap the fruits of my labor for the past three years of my life. My post graduate degree is finally finished. There have been many instances in which I had to give up something to keep with the demands of my studies. I gave up love, friends, time and energy. But I never quit because I believe someday God will reward me for my sacrifices.

It is true indeed that graduation is not the end but rather a start. I personally consider it as the beginning of an adventure to professionalism and personal growth. Bright ideas flow vigorously through a graduate's vein. However the whole new world that awaits them is not what they expect it to be. It is harsh and chaotic, and if one is not tough enough he may get himself lost. The cruel reality kills idealism which I consider as the main culprit for the death of vibrant and optimist people. But as I o on my journey I learned that if you want to survive fight for your right. Stand up for yourself. Immerse yourself to people and learn how to choose those that will help you reach your goal. Environment plays an important key role for our success.

People will love you in an instant and will hate you the next day. It all depends on how you please them, on how how you act in accordance to what they believe is right and proper. If you allow them to box you up to their standard, soon you'll realize that that has been the day you're idealism has died. The moment you follow what others had told you to do, you become a part of the world that you have longed to change. What Mahatma Gandhi said about change is this: be the change that you want. If you have a dream put that dream to work.

Haters, no matter where you go, will follow you. That's the truth, so what do you do to them?Hate them to?Curse them? God said, love your haters. For haters are just confused admirers (@Revrunwisdom). They may judge you but let them be. The legendary Eraserheads band said 'do your own thing and stick with what you want'.

Yesterday was my commencement exercise and honestly I know that once I go back to work things will change but I don't care. Criticisms are good at some point because they make you realize that you are fortunate not to have the green-eyed monster hovering beside you and that you are not nurturing a little devil inside you.

As I graduate again this is what I have learned--be grateful for your achievements but always learn how to humble yourself and thank the One who have given you blessings. Feel the moment and then let go. Once you knew how it feels to be at the top start detaching yourself from that emotion and put your feet back on the ground. The crowns are not ours to keep but to throw off at the feet of Our creator. Use wisely whatever talent God has given us for there's no greater sin than ignoring God's gift.

My new day starts with a job interview, not typical for a person who just graduated but a good starting point. If this goes right then I believe I am finally reaping the fruits of my labor =) Hardships make us good persons. Do your own thing and stick with what you want. You don't have to be great to start but you have to start to be great. Fight the chaos. Dare to be different. Never be afraid of mistakes, keep a prayer in your pocket to guide you and always move forward towards the path of God!

Be useful. Be productive. Be happy~ Mr. Joseph Gallego

Likewise, urge the younger men to be self-controlled. Show yourself in all respects to be a model of good works, and in your teaching show integrity, dignity, and sound speech that cannot be condemned, so that an opponent may be put to shame, having nothing evil to say about us.

~Titus 2:6-8

And if you faithfully obey the voice of the Lord your God, being careful to do all his commandments that I command you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the earth. And all these blessings shall come upon you and overtake you, if you obey the voice of the Lord your God.

~

Deuteronomy 28:1-2

apr 8, 2010 7.30am

Omanfil, Parañaque

because I ran out of double-sided tape =)

I would have gone to your side if I could but for some reasons I couldn’t. Why does one have to go to you? You’re luring me to follow your trail but I tell myself that it is not the way. I fought my urge to walk and will sprain myself if I have to. Stop. Can’t you read between the lines? I am not the same girl that you have left and traded for someone who could not even stand up for herself. I have grown. I have move on. Yes it’s true that I have forgiven you. But my heart have found 101 reasons not to love you anymore. I am still your friend but I am really sorry I cannot follow you down. Obedience is not for me. So please just go on without me. Our stop have passed and it is time for you to accept that we never were and we’ll never be. Pardon my words but please don’t blame me for voicing out my sentiments. I am not mad or whatsoever…I just ran out of double-sided tape for my scarp book =)

my adrenaline rush was over

my adrenaline rush was over

My endorphine level has kept me numb for the past few weeks. I suddenly realized that a lot of things have happen but I remained silent, unmoved and unaffected for quite some time. I have been disoriented and listless I could not even finish my simple tasks and was having a hard time remembering things. My self-confinement in our house double murdered my non-existent social life. Too many goodbyes have been said and yet I have pretended that nothing has changed. Some of my friends have left for the greener pastures while some have had an early retirement to life (God paged them way too early to be at His kingdom).

And in the middle of these life changing moments I refuse to immerse myself to the overflowing emotions. For some reasons I remained here, in my solitary room, spending my day mumbling nonsense and day dreaming. What was I thinking? I myself don’t know. I am lost in my thoughts that it takes a while to drift me back to reality. My mobile phone and my internet connection has been the only link I have to the outside world. So maybe this is how it feels to be in Big Brother’s house.

But even with the existence of a mobile phone I’m still out of reach. I rarely use it for communication purposes. Pretty much of the time it serves as MP3 player. I know, I know I’m starting to act weird. Just for the record I have read all of your messages its just that I am not in the mood to talk to someone else. I feel that I have to reflect on my life. To my disappointment I fail to identify the missing parts. So I resort myself to another listless thinking and then the cycle goes on.

Now that my adrenaline rush have subsided to the normal level I looked back and realize how much did I missed. Too many goodbyes. Too many chances to meet up with my old buddies but where was I? Living in your dreams doesn’t do any good I guess. No matter what,you still have to go back to reality where you can actually see things, feel things and experience living. I was too afraid of changes that I have buried myself to my own thoughts. My hyperactive imagination has taken over me. I wonder if this is one of the cons of too much vacation or too much stress? I don’t know however I do believe I need a distraction from this routine or else I’ll soon wear a straight jacket. I am hauling myself back to reality. I’m going back to work at least there I can put my mind to focus again though I’m still undecided whether I was just uninspired, burnout, or really walking to towards the path of insanity(I hope not). I shall emerge from my den and see the sun again. Well if this distraction does not work I’m afraid I have to see a shrink just to be safe. On the brighter side, at least I’m not as talkative as I was before. The end result was I can sit all day not speaking =) I don’t want to bluff non sense and sinful things just because I have not trained my tongue to go in sync with my mind.

At the end of it all, I do recognize my faults and is willing to emerge back for the sake of sanity and growth and learning. Yes, I did miss a lot. But in my heart the memories lived on. I just can’t take too much sadness. I’m sorry I am just not built that way,I do plan to make it up though. I pray that things will unravel its meaning in time. I pray for strength and courage from God to fight back those ungodly thoughts that hovers in my mind. I know this is a challenge from God. When you turn your back from the evil, the temptations to go back are sometimes hard to resist. The path to goodness isn’t an easy path but when you have God living in your heart, You’re sure to reach it in no time. My adrenaline rush has gone down…Now it’s time to pick up the sword and continue to walk down the road of life. God bless!

“Do not enter the path of wicked, and do not walk in the way of evil. Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn away from it and pass on” Proverbs 4:14-15

neverland

When pixie dust lost its sparkle

when happy thoughts can't get through

Peter Pan will come to

save you from hook

and then maybe,

the ticking croc will do

giddiyup, giddiyup!

tweetle dim do!

ahoy to Pan who saves you!

magic sometimes don't do

but love will always guide you through

3.27.10

12.58pm

on patience

Sometimes we fall for the wrong reasons and end up being hurt again and again. The problem is we are always in a hurry to find our happy ending. People are usually impatient. We never trust God’s time so we eagerly take the pen in His hands to start writing our own story. But the more we become impulsive the more we hurt ourselves. The ending that we wish for gets even more elusive reaching out of our grasp.

Peer pressure has been one of the reasons why we want an instant solution to our dying love life. I think envy also played a part to our decisions. Just because our friends have their partners doesn’t mean that it is also a requirement for us to have our own. Remember that people move from one phase to another at a different pace. Everything has their timeframe. Don’t seek for love just because you feel you have to. In the first place you don’t look for love it comes naturally at the right time. Patience is a virtue.

One is not obliged to follow what everyone around him is telling him to do. Morrie once said ‘forget what the future says’. Yes, indeed there is such a saying that goes mind your own business and there is a term such as ‘individualized’ what works for your best friend might not be good for you.

What I am trying to say is do not rush love for it will surely come. It doesn’t matter if you are the only single in the group. Use this phase to your advantage. It pays to wait. Patience is one of the most important things that one must learn because most of the times our plans never turn out the way you want them to be. Trust God’s plans and do not cannon ball things. One thing I learned about God is that He sometimes bring us to our ending but doesn’t reveal it at once maybe because we are not yet ready for it, so He made us sidetrack along the path to prepare us to handle responsibilities.

I would be a hypocrite if I don’t say that I am sometimes jealous of my other friends and there have been many instances that I have been seduced to snatch the pen from the hands of our Father and start writing my own version of my happy ending. Thank God I always find the strength to fight back and shake off those thoughts. It would not do me any good if I stray from His path. I know He’s busy writing my story, so for now I’m gonna sit down and wait for it to happen. I have fueled myself with enough patience and prayers to go along way. I trust His plans. I know my time will come. I never wanna make the same mistakes that I did so I don’t care about the peer pressure anymore. I have forgotten what the culture has said. I only care about His love and His words for now that would be enough.

For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

~Jeremiah 29:11

happy feet

Always wear a nice pair of shoes~the one you're comfortable with, because that shoes will bring you to new places! Be in good terms with your feet for they'll lead you to your destination. Be an explorer with your happy feet. =)

Next Stop: Buses and Trains to Happiness

I guess I now know why I have never like living in the metro. The rush and fast-paced life there does not suit my laid back personality. I think living in the inner suburbs will exploit my well being haha! i have never loved harsh living and I think I never will. I enjoy simple life. I love living in a city where I can go to the places I like without looking like crap after taking the public transports. I don't have a good relationship with traffic =) Simplicity has always been my company.

However, inevitable event happen and I have no choice but to go Manila. this job hunting thing is not nice. It's tiring me and it's consuming the best of me. One will never have to leave if the supply meets the demand. What a depressing feeling it is to leave your haven and be an explorer. As what the Woodtrolls of Edge would say 'straying out of the path'. What lies beneath the path is what people call as the greener pastures. but I wonder is the grass over there really of such green? Or is it just because few creatures try to use it for their advantage?

Man's passion to sustain his curiosity seems to have no ending. Have we turned ourselves into a selfish, greedy, self-centered monster? This harsh realms of travelling has given me thoughts to ponder which ignited my neurons to be in this state-talkative and very much alive mind yet a silent persona on the outside.

I have always been ecstatic on the idea of going abroad to seek for my fortune. Now that it's coming I suddenly come to a realization that I will soon be alone. I shall be responsible for myself. My inner peter pan summoned herself from somewhere deep inside. Clinging to what I have now won't help. Growing up means letting go of some to be able to grasp the better ones. Just like the way the alchemist, Santiago, gave up his beloved flock of sheep to gamble on his fate that has never been clear. What I learn today is this_ it is not enough that you have a dream; what's of importance is how you put that ream in motion. God has provided enough omens for us to realize. We just have to recognize them and follow. When God wants us to have the best He sometimes gives us challenges(I like to call it that way rather than saying burdens). Remember challenges makes us persevere, work harder and to dream more. It is a way of unleashing our hidden energy to maximize our potentials. Beginner's luck have their purpose- they stimulate our passion to move forward towards our goals. But when we eventually run out of beginner's luck that's when our real game is on. So we must have a persistent stamina to go on.

At this point, I finally found my omens and my beginner's luck is running low. But if bus rides and public transports are part of the challenges, I think I have to stay strong and expose myself to the harsh city. omens are very persistent yet if you do not recognize them they'll get tired of encouraging you. So bring it on! At the end of the day, no matter how many rides I must take I know I will still get to my destination in time....In God's time..Buses and trains are good after all... =)

3.27.10

4.18pm

NLEX/SCTEX

reading much when I'm not supposed to =)

I have review my current reading list..well I'm not supposed to read to much because i have to do final editing for manuscript which i have managed to delay for over a week now and the deadline is the day after tomorrow =) plus i'm also preparing for my ielts test so there really is no time to read..but i just can't resist reading! I'm starting to act like Ella of Frell whenever I don't get to read withdrawal symptoms appear...

well then here is my current reading list:

> the notebook-nicholas sparks

>twilight-stephanie meyer

>harry potter series-j.k. rowling

>coralin-neil gaimann

>the time traveller's wife

>sisterhood of travelling pants

>the pursuit of happiness

>the thief lord-cornelia funke

>the secret life of bees

>nick and norah's infinite playlist

>the graveyard book-neil gaimann

>the kite runner

>stargirl

>inkspell

>series of unfortunate events book3

next in line:

>missing you-1-800-where r u- meg cabot

>gossip girl

>confessions of a shopaholic

>memoirs of geisha

>message in a bottle

>the princess diaries series

>the choice

>the hunger games

>atonement

>george's marvelous medicines

>his dark materials series

>inheritance trilogy

>PS I love you

>sophie's world

>the book thief

>the ice queen-alice hoffman

>the lovely bones

>the devil wears prada

>the little princess

>love in the time of cholere

>my uncle oswald

>amityville horror

>love, stargirl

>when in rome

>a long way down-nick horby

recently finished:

>percy jackson and the olympians: the last olympian

>the alchemist

>dear john

>ella enchanted

waah too much! haha

a minute of prayer for my dear classmate

Dear Father God,

Today I heard a Shocking news ~my classmate/colleague, Leo Bas has met a terrible accident and is now fighting for his life. He is now in Jose Reyes Memorial Hospital getting medical attention but still his condition is not good.

Father God, I'm lifting him to you. Bless him so that he may recover fast and come home to his family. Please give him strength to fight this battle. May he not lose hope and continue to fight.

Father God, I am also praying for Leo's family. Bless them and give them courage and faith to believe that with You my Father nothing is impossible. I know they worry too much, I pray that You give them peace. I pray that whatever happens they'll still accept Your will . I may not be able to see Leo personally but I wish that my prayers will reach him. Bless him Father God. Bless his family. May Leo find the way back home to be with them. Guide him my Lord as he travel. And last Father God, may all our prayers reach him. I know God that nothing is impossible with You but whatever Your will is may we find the courage to accept it and recognize that you have plans for each of us. Give us understanding and wisdom to accept things that are not in our control. Take the wheel fro us and direct us to where You want us to be. This I pray my Lord, in Jesus name. Amen.

"Abba, Father," he cried out, "everything is possible for you. Please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine."~ Mark 14:36

"For nothing is impossible with God."~Luke 1:37

green-eyed monster go away!

Father God, please do not let the green-eyed monster consume me. So this is how it feels to be betrayed again. Father God, please take this pain away let me be better after all this. Father God, I pray that I may learn to use this experience as a way to find the road to Your glory. Bless me Father. I know it hurts but I know that if I continue I'll just be leading to the path of endless sin.

I'm praying for strength. I'm praying for courage. I'm praying for patience. I know You have plans for me and Father I trust you. I trust your time table. I'm lifting everything to you...

"Do not enter the path of wicked, and do not walk in the way of evil. Avoid it, do not travel on it; turn away from it and pass on" Proverbs 4:14-15

God will make a way

These past weeks I kept on praying to God for something. At first I thought He didn't heard me but the other night I had the biggest revelation of my life.

I was reading a book by Joshua Harris entitled 'I kissed dating goodbye" when i first stumbled on the verse Jeremiah 29:11. I did not noticed it at first but then again when I opened my twitter..two of the people that I'm following had tweet it. I find it very timely to my current situation so I retweeted it. Yesterday when I opened my Bible it is still the first verse that I saw.

I remembered Bill Johnson's sermon, he said that we should make a history with God. Before seeking out the help of other people let us seek God's help first. and true indeed I have believed that this will become one of my history with Him. well, maybe it will be. But when I browse over Bethel.org I almost cry when I read about the sermon of the week.

the sermon was entitled "Perfectly Imperfect" by Pastor Brent Allen and it says:

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

“But… I am not perfect!” is the response many people give when asked about being used by God. They begin citing their past failures and convincing themselves that they are not “perfect enough” for God to use them.

Many times we use our imperfections, our past, and our failures as reasons to not engage in doing what God has commanded in scripture - the principles in His Word and the promptings we receive in our times of prayer. When God directs us, we tend to back away and offer excuses. Excuses not based on Gods inabilities, but rather our complete knowledge of our own imperfections. We just don’t feel worthy to be used by God.

But imperfections are exactly what God is looking for. God uses imperfections and actually requires them from every person desiring to be used by God - because it’s our imperfections that make us perfectly suited to fulfill His plans.

So, what is God looking for – if not perfection? What makes imperfect people perfectly usable in God’s plans? And how can we truly be effective in our lives serving God and ministering to other people with all the faults and mistakes that seem to obstruct our progression in life?

Boom! That was it! This was the answer that i have been waiting for. and all I can say is AMEN! God is good! God hears! and God never fails!

Dear Father God, I know you are trying to talk to me through this verse. Thank you Father God for always reminding me that you are always by my side. I am grateful and blessed for Your never ending Love!

pananatili

Huwag mong naising lisanin kita;
Wala ‘kong hangaring ika’y mag-isa.
Sa’n man magtungo, ako’y sasabay,
Magkabalikat sa paglalakbay.

Mananahan sa tahanang sisilong sa ‘yo,
Yayakapin ang landasin at bayan mo.

Poon mo ay aking ipagbubunyi
At iibigin nang buong sarili.
Sa’n man abutin ng paghahanap,
Ikaw at ako’y magkasamang ganap.

Ipahintulot nawa ng Panginoon:
Ni kamataya’y maglalaho, anino ng kahapon.

Dahil pag-ibig ang alay sa ‘yo, mananatili ako.
H’wag nang naising tayo’y mawalay,
H’wag nang isiping
Magwawakas ang paglalakbay.

LOVE Jaeson Ma

I can't embed this vid so I'll just link it you can see it here

now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love

Chorus
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
(repeat)

Tired and Uninspired

Home, was always quiet 'til the sun went down.
But we were stowaways.
Yeah, we were so afraid.

So, we ran out of town.
From everyone who was calling us out.
Relax, relax.
Exhale and breathe, just breathe for me.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

Oh, they're not frame,
Oh, it went away.
You knew you had to leave and couldn't stay.
Be strong for me, I'll be strong for you.
Be strong for me, I'll be strong for you.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

And be strong for me.
And be strong for me.
And I'll be strong for you, oh, you.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.

You are the earth beneath my feet,
You are my gravity.
You are the earth beneath my feet.
You are my gravity.

Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired.
Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired.

who is heartless?

Apparently, I lost my heart. As far as I can remember I gave it to someone but instead of taking care of it, he threw it away. I did not bother to find it again. It's broken anyway.

Words of wisdom from a brown paper

The new addition to my growing files. And the very inspiring brown paper.

Today I have enrolled myself in IELTS(International English Language Test System) review even though my schedule is still a mess =)

But I know nothing is impossible and I'm asking God to back me up.

The person in-charge there gave me few assignments since I told him that I can't come to class regularly. The assignment includes listening and reading task which he placed in a long brown envelope.

I have a feeling that the review materials here are just being lend and you're supposed to return them when you're finished because the materials he gave me have some pencil markings and he told me not to put any markings except when using pencils.

When I left the review center I browse over the materials I found this quote on the envelope.

"If you ask it from God in prayer, believe that it will be given to you...No matter how small the possibility is, by simply believing in it and putting our HOPE in the LORD, 1% of possibility can go as far as 100%"

I find it inspiring. I think it is God's way of saying "my child, I'm here"

it is similar to the phrase

"ask and you shall receive,

seek and you shall find"

Lord, I know you're just watching over us. Thank you for believing in us, for never letting us down and for showing in every way possible that you love us. I am so blessed by your love and grace.

I can never ask for anything more. All i need is you Lord.

Faith

When you feel lost and beaten up.

And life throws one curve ball after another.

When you feel like giving up.

Just remember that God knows where you are

God knows what we need

God hears

And God never fails

so just trust in Him

Because when you are down on your knees, remember that it is always the BEST POSITION to pray.

Wonderful Day =)

Wonderful Day =)

I can't cross post it here so just click on the link bove =)

'anyare?!?!

Anyare?

Hindi ko din alam. Medyo disappointed ako sa mga nagyari ngayong araw. First day of the week and yet it is my first disappointment of the year.

Kasalanan ko din naman kasi late na kong natulog at hindi ko pinansin ang mga alarm ko. I should have known that plans sometimes never work out the way they should be kahit gaano mo pa katagal pinaghandaan.

and so I left home at past 1pm hoping that the 'seista time' will be over when I get there. I wasn't really in myself nung dumating ako dun. First, nakalimutan ko kung saan ang nursing office and second bigla kong naalala na I'm looking for the clinic of an EENT doctor. I have planned to have my tonsils checked since two weeks na yung sore throat ko.

When I arrived at the nursing office, wrong timing yata ang sungit ng mga tao. I stuttered when I was speaking, it's a bad habit of mine whenever I get nervous. Well anyway to cut it short mas matagal pa kong nag hintay kesa sa talagang plano ko.

Why? Because the person I was talking to was looking for her own copy of the letter na dala ko. Alam ko I made two copies of that. Kaya lang she was looking for the letter na addressed talaga sakanya kasi daw naka 'thru' lng skanya yung mga letter.

So I decided na wag na makipag talo I just said na I'll be back with her copy. Really, patience is a virtue.

Kaso ayoko ng umuwi para lng mag print. Mahal ang gasolina. So naghanap na lang ako ng computer shop. Yun nga lang malas talaga nasira yung printer dun sa pinuntahan ko. I checked my time it's almost four 'o clock na din. I decided to just pay the shop and go home since hindi na rin ako aabot. Pipirmahan pa kasi ng adviser at ng dean yung letter.

How can one small thing ruin one's optimism? Actually I'm a bit depressed/disappointed with what happened. This is my first disappointment for the year. And as I said it fortunately happened on the first day of the week.

Tama nga siguro sila, kung hindi ukol hindi bubukol. Maybe it's not my day today. Sabi ko nga nga dapat pala flexible ka when you are doing this thesis kasi nga your plans never turn out the way they should be.

buti na lang nung pauwi na ko nakakita ko ng pampalubag loob. I know kahit na I'm down God will always be there. Happy blessed Monday everyone! :)

Song for myself =)

I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten, yeah

Oh, oh

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines, oh yeah yeah
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way oh, oh

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins


The rest is still unwritten

The rest is still unwritten

Patience is a Virtue

Waiting is really hard to do and I must have more patience. One thing I learn from this thesis writing is that you should be more flexible because most of the time your plans don't turn out the way they should be.

I have also learn to humble yourself more and show humility. Indeed, it's really hard to ask for a favor from the people you really don't know. It takes a lot of courage to do that.

sometimes, this thesis thing is getting the best of me. I sometimes feel like giving up but knowing that I already gone this far gives me a little more push to go on. I know God will never fail me. I know He will never leave me and I'm giving Him back this experience. I know He just wants me to learn. Sometimes God has a funny way of teaching you lessons but one must never doubt Him for He is always there for us.

God, I thank you for giving e a chance to experience this things. Through this I have learned to become more patient and to humble myself more. I lift everything to you. I know Your Grace will always be with me.

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