I guess I now know why I have never like living in the metro. The rush and fast-paced life there does not suit my laid back personality. I think living in the inner suburbs will exploit my well being haha! i have never loved harsh living and I think I never will. I enjoy simple life. I love living in a city where I can go to the places I like without looking like crap after taking the public transports. I don't have a good relationship with traffic =) Simplicity has always been my company.
However, inevitable event happen and I have no choice but to go Manila. this job hunting thing is not nice. It's tiring me and it's consuming the best of me. One will never have to leave if the supply meets the demand. What a depressing feeling it is to leave your haven and be an explorer. As what the Woodtrolls of Edge would say 'straying out of the path'. What lies beneath the path is what people call as the greener pastures. but I wonder is the grass over there really of such green? Or is it just because few creatures try to use it for their advantage?
Man's passion to sustain his curiosity seems to have no ending. Have we turned ourselves into a selfish, greedy, self-centered monster? This harsh realms of travelling has given me thoughts to ponder which ignited my neurons to be in this state-talkative and very much alive mind yet a silent persona on the outside.
I have always been ecstatic on the idea of going abroad to seek for my fortune. Now that it's coming I suddenly come to a realization that I will soon be alone. I shall be responsible for myself. My inner peter pan summoned herself from somewhere deep inside. Clinging to what I have now won't help. Growing up means letting go of some to be able to grasp the better ones. Just like the way the alchemist, Santiago, gave up his beloved flock of sheep to gamble on his fate that has never been clear. What I learn today is this_ it is not enough that you have a dream; what's of importance is how you put that ream in motion. God has provided enough omens for us to realize. We just have to recognize them and follow. When God wants us to have the best He sometimes gives us challenges(I like to call it that way rather than saying burdens). Remember challenges makes us persevere, work harder and to dream more. It is a way of unleashing our hidden energy to maximize our potentials. Beginner's luck have their purpose- they stimulate our passion to move forward towards our goals. But when we eventually run out of beginner's luck that's when our real game is on. So we must have a persistent stamina to go on.
At this point, I finally found my omens and my beginner's luck is running low. But if bus rides and public transports are part of the challenges, I think I have to stay strong and expose myself to the harsh city. omens are very persistent yet if you do not recognize them they'll get tired of encouraging you. So bring it on! At the end of the day, no matter how many rides I must take I know I will still get to my destination in time....In God's time..Buses and trains are good after all... =)
3.27.10
4.18pm
NLEX/SCTEX
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